Acceptance

Today has just been one of those days, those days where you just sort of accept everything. Not really with this big life changing moment... but simply realizing that the world is the way that it is. That people are the way they are. It's just something that everyone accepts in their own time. That things are the way they are, and no matter how hard you try things will stay the way they are until other people decide to change them, and that is simply life.

We are all simply people. People who have a choice of what they want in life, but in reality the only thing you can choose in your life is how you live it. Because everything else is determined by other people, and you just have to let the cards fall where they will. Fighting against what will happen is a very stupid move, and it's a move that I've made plenty of times and yet now is the time that I finally accept it.

You can't control people, or their actions. You can't control the world, or it's actions. You cannot control nature, or God. All you really have to control in life is yourself and the choices you make.

I've also accepted that people will surprise you, both in positive and negative ways. Take for instance Derek, coming right up to our table and sitting down next to me at lunch. Then asking our table about our social lives and how we were. Now, as you don't know Derek it's not something that'd surprise you. However Derek made my life Hell for a year, and he's one of the most popular freshmen their are, and he came up and sat next to me...

It's one of those things about people surprising you. I was surprised by a few other people too, including my teachers. Who can be amazingly harsh at times toward their students. And my friends, who can be painfully obvious and embarrassing.

Yes I'll admit it, there are times when I wish I could disown my friends, because that is simply how it is. Mostly it's Traci and Meghan who I wish I could disown, because they always feel the need to shout and yell and overreact, loudly, to everything. It does embarrass me, also there are times when I wish I could disown Jess XD. I love Jess dearly, but sometimes she is a bit too over the top for me, or she has too many people mad at her. See Traci, Meghan and Jess all rock... but there are times... anyway I have learned to accept that's who they are and I still love them anyway XD.

Anyway I think I should be getting off upstairs, it's almost 9 and I still have some homework to do... and I think I forgot my Geometry... and my Into to Chem... well that sucks... Maybe I can do them at lunch XD.

Love from,
Amby